Tuesday 30 November 2004

A Story of Life..(pls take time 2 read)

A professor stood before his philosophy class and had some items in front of him. When the class began, wordlessly, he picked up a very large and empty mayonnaise jar and proceeded to fill it with golf balls. He then asked the students if the jar was full. They agreed that it was. So the professor then picked up a box of pebbles and poured them into the jar. He shook the jar lightly. The pebbles rolled into the open areas between the golf balls. He then asked the students again if the jar was full. They agreed it was.

The professor next picked up a box of sand and poured it into the jar. Of course, the sand filled up everything else. He asked once more if the jar was full. The students responded with a unanimous "yes." The professor then produced two cups of coffee from under the table and poured the entire contents into the jar, effectively filling the empty space between the sand. The students laughed.

"Now," said the professor, as the laughter subsided, "I want you to recognize that this jar represents your life. The golf balls are the important things --> your God, your family, your children, your health, your friends, and your favorite passions ---> things that if everything else was lost and only they remained, your life would still be full. The pebbles are the other things that matter like your job, your house, and your car. The sand is everything else-the small stuff. "If you put the sand into the jar first," he continued, "there is no room for the pebbles or the golf balls. The same goes for life. If you spend all your time and energy on the small stuff, you will never have room for the things that are important to you. Pay attention to the things that are critical to your happiness. Play with your children. Take time to get medical checkups. Take your partner out to dinner. Play another 18. There will always be time to clean the house and fix the disposal." Take care of the golf balls first, the things that really matter. Set your priorities. The rest is just sand."

One of the students raised her hand and inquired what the coffee represented. The professor smiled. "I'm glad you asked. It just goes to show you that no matter how full your life may seem, there's always room for a couple of cups of coffee with a friend."


When things in your life seem almost too much to handle, when 24 hours in a day are not enough, remember the mayonnaise jar and the coffee...

.:adapted from a forward email:.

Thursday 18 November 2004

happy²!^_^

hahahaha..today i feel so happy..and relieved!!oh man..my mood's being affected so much by S.O.M.E.O.N.E... haha..i feel so happy after tt person called me!!!..die.. my mood + emotion r being controlled by S.O.M.E.O.N.E. le.. but still.. i couldn't really care..becos im really happy!!..haha..the sky's so blue..and the birds'r singing merrily..lalalala..*tink im goin mad soon!*

last nite i watched 'BJ's Diary'..haha..it's quite a nice show..and i enjoyed it alot..not only becos it's a good show..but aso becos i was in a darn good mood(becos o...?=P)!!..lalalala..& good mood makes me enjoy tt movie more!!

ok..a question 4 every1 reading 2 tink about..do gimme some intelligent, brilliant answers k? =]
imagine tt u'r married 4quite a few years..u haf been trying hard wif ur spouse 2 haf a baby but fail..1 day, u went 4 a medical check-up & e doctor informed u tt u'r pregnant ( or 4 e guys' case, ur wife's pregnant)..o cos, both o u were overjoyed as u tink tt it's e best christmas present u haf ever received & tt u haf long waited 4 tis day 2 come..suddenly..the doctor gave u a call & informed u tt ur unborn child's a handicapped (let's say..it'll become a spastic child)..wat would u do?

will u keep e baby & giv birth 2 it? but it's a spastic child..u'll haf 2 take care of it 4 e rest o ur life..it'll become a burden 2 u & ur spouse.. & u'll haf 2 bear wif all e pain & agony it brings about..

or will u abort it? it's cruel & inhuman 2 abort e baby.. & ur wife may not b able 2 give birth again after abortion..

wat will u do?...

*i'll tink about it aso..ltr in e day i'll post up my ans k? enjoy tinking!!=]

Tuesday 16 November 2004

sad² day..

today's such a sad day 4 me..nth happened though..i jus feel so sad out of a suddden..mayb it's becos of wat happened yesterday (erm..wat happened yesterday?)..haix..im such a loser..born loser..

a letter frm me to u (..whoever or wateva u'r..),

i dunno how to start or where to start..becos i realised i dunno u at all..suddenly, u jus seems like a stranger to me..u dunno how afraid im..becos like wat i always say, u'r not me, no matter how hard u try, u can neva experience the same feeling as me..but i guess it doesn't matter anymore..at least to u..

u dunno how much u haf hurt me..all these time..all e things tt i haf done 4 u..u choose to ignore..or forget about them..i tot u'r not lidat..i tot u rmb e things i did 4 u..i tot u'r different frm e others..i tot... ...but in e end, u prove me wrong..u said i do not care..u said i only take, dun give..but you'r wrong..very wrong..i cant name out the things i did 4 u..not becos i din do anything tt's y i cant name them out..aso not becos they'r so not impt i cant rmb..it's becos but i choose 2 forget..y? i tot it's normal 4 me to do all these things 4 u becos u wroth it..so y bother 2 rmb?

we'r not saint..we made mistakes..i do..u do..everybody do..im sorry i made all those stupid mistakes..i noe im wrong..i'll try my best 2 change my attitude and character.. do u rmb u made mistakes too?u did do sth wrong aso? u did hurt other ppl b4 too? but do u rmb? i cant rmb e mistakes u haf made..not becos they r too minor or sth..but becos i choose 2 forgive and forget..or at least i try to.. i forgive u..and now im trying to forget..it's difficult to forget..but im trying..trying to squeeze them into a corner in my memory..make them as insignificant as possible..

all along i tot u'r doing the same thing..but i jus realised u'r not..u still hold on to the past..u still choose not to forgive and forget..can u understand e hurt i feel? (i bet u cant cos..u'r not me..)

it feels like as if i was living in my own dream all this while..my own fantasy.. or mayb it's my fault..becos i always 'think' u'r lidat..i couldn't c the reality..it's my fault tt im hurt..becos i did not really bothered to find out the truth..like i said..i live in my own world all this time..

to stranger, i dunno hu exactly u'r.. i dunno wat u wanna do next..i dunno wat's ur decision..but please..if possible..do inform me when u haf make ur decision k? tt's e last wish i haf..

last of all, thank you for ur kind attention.

Monday 15 November 2004

ARH!

i jus wrote so much in the other blog then suddenly my damn com restart!!! i din save them anywhere so they are all gone!!! but i dun tink anyone will believe me..

when tis com restart, i really dunno wat..i wanted to cry..but no tears..i felt like telling someone, but nobody i can turn to..arh!!! nobody'll understand how i feel at that point of time..even people who haf experience tt b4..because they are not me..

i jus read sth frm somewhere and seriously they are kinda hurtful..it feels like as if all the efforts i tried to put in tis yr in sth had all gone to waste..becos despite me doing them, nobody realised..or even forgotten wat i haf done..it's really hurtful..to tink tt i remembered every single thing tt person did 4 me & yet, tis's wat i get in return..being forgotten..

am i, and the things i did, so insignificant that nobody bothered to rmb?

everyone in tis world is so self-centred(me included)..y cant they(i) jus stop tinking about my(their) own feelings?

if this selfishness can go away in human, this world'll become a much better place, so good i think it can be called 'utopia'..that's y utopia doesn't exist..

everyone in this world..why must people be bounded by how others view them?is others' viewpoint really tt impt? who are u leading your life for? yourself? or other people? why cant human jus lead the life they want without caring about how others view them?

can someone give me answers?


..blues..

finally my b'day's over..im kinda relieved(i dunno y)..but damn it!im having some kind o blues rite now..darn!!i wanted 2 write sth but i 4got wat's it!i jus feel so irritated out o a sudden rite now!!!ARHHH!!!..damn it!..DAMN!!!..bye!

Sunday 14 November 2004

an ordinary day

today's jus like any other ordinary day..or mayb u can plus e fact t it's aso my 18th b'day..(yeah..my b'day..happy b'day 2 me..happy b'day to me..happy b'day to yuk ching..happy b'day to me..)..

as u can tell, i din celebrate my b'day tis yr..not becos nobody wanted 2 celebrate it 4 me..but becos i dun wish 2 celebrate it..mayb it's becos i haf become more mature(aka grow older=P), i no longer c b'day as sth big, like how i used 2 tink a few yrs back..or mayb it's becos im now already 18..im getting O.L.D..&e older 1 gets, the less likely they want a b'day celebration..mayb becos they do not want to remind themselves tt they r gettin older & their youth's slowly passing away(haha..at least tt's wat i tink..im no longer young)..

actually can some1 tell me wat it means by b'day?..does it mean tt once u reach ur b'day, u'll suddenly grow up phsically, mentally or psychologically?..u can b 18, 20 or even 30 yrs old physically, but ur character will neva grow overnite wat..i mean one's character grow gradually..so back 2 my question..wat's e main purpose o celebrating one's b'day?..actually i dun c any pt in it..i mean it's merely jus the day tt u'r born..no matter which day u's born in, u'r still u..b'day's jus like valentine's, mothers' day, fathers' day, children's day, christmas, etc, where e advertisers'r e 1 hu atarted & encourage ppl 2 celebrate it by buyin presents & cakes & other kind of stuff..i mean in e past, hu celebrate b'day except elderly?..so all these kind of celebrations..is jus another form of luxury..

even though i dun really wanna celebrate my b'day, but i still made myself sth as b'day present..haha..fancy making present 4 myself..it's sth like tt SeaWaLK thingy i made 4 sh..but it's more complicated than tt cos im making it in a shape of flower instead of fish(..ere's petals..)..but im enjoying e process!!!neva knew it's tis fun 2 made sth 4 myself!!..after i complete tis..im tinkin of drawin sth 4 myself 4 christmas..haha..some ppl may find it weird, ju on earth giv presents 2 themselves..or worse..made presents 4 themselves on their b'day..well..im a livin example&im enjoyin it!!anyway, i dun c anythin wrong wif it wat..it's jus my way of celebratin & besides, wat's wrong wif pampering myself by making things?..haha..im startin 2 like 2 do things 2 pamper myself!!!hahahaha..

even though i dun really wanna celebrate my b'day..but i still haf some b'day wishes:
1)do well for A-level--->get into local uni
2) haf a trouble-free yr 2005(tis yr too much things happened, almost cant take it!)
3)get a job tis holiday & stop wastin my time!!

b4 i sign off..i really wanna thank all those hu wish me happy birthday..thank you guys!!!=)
ok..sh's here..buay!!!

Thursday 11 November 2004

class chalet..

on mon 2 wed was my class chalet @ aloha loyang..haha..it's my 1st time goin 4 chalet..bet nobody'll believe tt..anyway, i had a very good time & i really enjoyed myself..

on mon we checked in @3.30p.m. & we seriously tink tt tis's cheating our money..i mean checkin in @3.30's like more than half a day's gone..after we checked in & settle everythin, we borrowed e guys' bikes & went 2 cycle ard e chalet..e guys they adjusted e seats so high ko sing & i haf problem gettin onto e bikes..after we go back 2 e chalet & it's almost dinner time le..they ordered KFC & pizza hut..i cycle out 2 downtown east w sh 2 get our dinner..

ltr at nite..went 2 take a walk ard e whole pasir ris park w sh..really cant believe i walked e whole park!..haha..

actually ere's nth much happened..we had BBQ on e 2nd nite..then 3rd day 9.45a.m. haf 2 check out le..yah..tt's almost all..

oh yah..on e 2nd day..ko sing asked e class 2 gather in e livin room while we'r BBQ-ing..i tot she had some kind o announcement 2 make..then it turned out tt they celebrate my b'day..they even got me a present..haha..im rally surprised..cos i din relly expect tt..esp. e present..sh told me kok seong brought it ere on e very 1st day..haha..guess im really lagging like mad..cos i din notice it at all..somemore it's really huge..im really happy & contented..havin some1 rmb-ing my b'day's already e best present,i dun need anythin else le..

kk..wanna go play the sims 2 le..bye!
*p.s.do look out 4 e entry on my b'day..it'll b sth surprising(@least 2 me)!=P

Tuesday 2 November 2004

The Sims 2!!!

it's such a fun game!!!but so sad my game got problem cant use build mode..and i love building houses!!!haix..nvm..i'll play sims if i wanna build hse or get bored wif sims 2..4 e time being..i shld enjoy the sims 2!!!..yeah..it's really interesting!!!i can actually c the pregnancy..and i can c my sims growing up..haha..darn fun..spent my whole day in front o my com, playing nth but sims..i even 4got 2 haf my lunch!!tink sooner or ltr im gonne kanna game addition!!!haha..somemore tt's my project topic..

i wanted to look 4 a job on mon after my PW oral presentation..wanted to go NTUC..but in e end i din go..cos i was too scared la..going to look 4 a job alone..in sch uniform somemore..haha..mayb tis sat i drag my ma along to look 4 a job..really hope i can get one..becos i want to pay 4 my own A-level..i dun tink it's nice 2 make my parents pay 4 my exam..somemore it's so expensive..aso..i can mayb get an mp3 or sth.becos tt's wat i want, not wat i need, so i dun feel good asking my parents 2 buy it 4 me using their hard-earned money..plus, my bank account aso..1 whole yr din haf any change in e balance le..must add in money and make some changes..

k..shld go do other stuff le..(like..erm...?)..haha..bye!=)