Wednesday 28 March 2007

wth!

take a look at this tuition assignment notification email that i received yesterday

Assignment Details:
Tutor gender and race Preference: No preference, No preference.
Requirement: 4 As for A levels, Straight As for O levels. Will be moving to Tiong Bahru mid year.
TO TUTORS: state if you can teach chinese as well..
Session per week: Twice x 1.5hours.
Level and Subjects: Primary_5 - English, Maths (and chinese)
Suggested tuition fee per hour: $.
Schedule: Flexible, can be once or twice a wk.

seriously..why don't the parent just state "only medicine students need to apply?"

this is the most ridiculous assignment i have seen so far. i think a request for current/ex school teacher is very reasonable, because they know the stuff that will most probably be tested.

but a request like this? asking for straight A's student? this is just absurd!

i think the parent has somehow equate straight A's student to good tutor, which is seriously not true! you can be very good in mugging and spotting exam questions, but you don't know how to convey your message across to make yourself understood!

besides, the child is ONLY PRIMARY 5, not in junior college or something. why do they need a tutor with such good qualification when most of the tutor in Singapore should not have problem teaching his/her child? too much money to splurge on tuition?

come on, i bet majority of the teacher teaching in primary school don't even have this kind of grades for their O and A'Level..

weird mentality of some parents..

Tuesday 27 March 2007

hate it!

i don't understand why i have to go through all these trouble. they are none of my business.

whether they come or not is not my problem. all i have to do is stay out late until everyone is asleep, & leave my house before everyone gets up. i am free from all the trouble.

why do they have to come complain to me about each other? they are supposed to be each other's soul mate, why can't they just talk to each other about their problem? why must they always come to me?

i know i am supposed to be happy. happy because you see me as an adult, someone who is mature enough to listen to their problem. but hello? i am your daughter as well. what are you doing by telling me all the negative things about your partner? want me to dislike him/her? want me to side with you?

i am your daughter. you are my parents. of course i want to see a happy and harmonious family. and since you are not talking things out, then i will be the bridge and help you two to understand what is on each other's mind.

but what do i get in return? nothing but scolding.

you both claim that i side with the other party. but c'mon, why should i side with any one of you? i don't owe one more than the other. i can't gain anything if i take sides.

and so, i choose to keep quiet. whenever you talk, i just listen without giving any comment. what happened? scolding again.

you say i am not concern about you; say i am not paying attention; say what is the point of raising me up when i am apathetic towards their problem.

tell me what you want.

and so, i got angry. i shouted, i threw tantrum. it has been years since i last threw tantrum at home, at least something of this scale.
i can guess what they are going to say about me already: i am not filial, i raised my voice when i talked to them. i am useless.. blah blah blah..

i am really frustrated. whatever i do is wrong. you two are not treating me like a friend, are you? both of you just take me as a "sandbag", vent your frustration and anger you have on each other on me.
i have had enough.i am not your puppet; i am an individual who have my own way of thinking. none of you can "pull" me to your side, for i will side no one.

i need some space.

so from now on, i should not be bothered; i give up helping. since both of you don't like to hear about what the other party think, then i tell you what you want to hear, OK? in fact, i will help to add in extra "seasoning", if that is what you are looking for.

i know you two may end up getting divorce if i really go all out to do it. but, isn't that what you want? if not, why did you scold me for saying what the other party think?

i shall not be a busybody anymore. i shall be oblivious to my surrounding and let you do whatever you want.

seriously, i have enough problem of my own, i don't need to add more items on my "list of problems", but i took the time to listen; i took the time to talk to you. have you ever wonder why i did that?

because i love you, mummy and daddy. i don't want to see you argue. i want a happy family.

all these would not have happened if they talked to each other, in a calm manner.

next time i will not be like them.
at least, i will not complain to my children the negative things about their dad, because it is really harmful.
i am a victim, so i know.

Monday 26 March 2007

some T & F..

when couples fight, they fail to do the following, hence their relationship suffer:
1. step aside and allow each other to cool down
2. talk to your partner calmly/ listen to your partner attentively
3. make the necessary changes

i know i have never complete the 3 steps stated above. it is always easier said than done. and so i know my relationship is bound to suffer.

but there is no guarantee that by following the steps given above, your relationship will last 'till the end of time.
because sometimes, even if the two people try very hard to maintain the love between them, there's always something beyond our control. if they are not meant to be together, they will not last eventually.

sometimes it takes more than two hands to make a clap.

continued..

it is amazing how one's mind works.

i know subconsciously, i am against premarital sex. but for some unknown reasons, after my post yesterday, i have been feeling very strongly about it. like there is a very strong hatred towards premarital sex burning within me.

i don't know what went wrong.

but seriously, i really detest those who do it. what for? is there anything they can gain from doing it?

i despise them for a reason. i will never be prejudiced against the unfortunates, the poor, and those who are of different ethnic groups and religious beliefs. why? because i believe we can coexist in this world; they did not do anything that offend me.

so one must be thinking, then what did those people who have premarital sex got to do with me? no doubt, they have nothing to do with me. however, i am against the practice, against this "modernised thinking", not against the people. i despise them because it is something that is of choice; something that one can choose to go ahead with it, or to refrain. it is the same as taking drugs, smoking, gambling and drinking. there is always a choice.

look at those who are less fortunate than us, may it be physically, mentally or monetary. do you think they have a choice? no. they were born like this. there was not even a choice for them to choose if they want to be in the situation they are stuck in.

it is all the matter of choice: you choose to waste food, you choose to drink, you choose to smoke, you choose to gamble, you choose to take drugs, you choose to have premarital sex.

anyway, i just detest, not only those who actually have premarital sex, but also those who believe that it is alright to do it.

if i know i can't teach my children the right moral values, i rather not have any.

Sunday 25 March 2007

scorpio..

in the end. i am still me, the typical Scorpio.

it is trial and tested.

i really love revenge. even subconsciously, i am thinking about revenge.

i seize every single opportunity to avenge for myself.
even though i know very well that i can not gain anything from it; i just can't help it.

sweet revenge.


let me clarify one thing here: i will never, ever, have premarital sex.
so those people, stop teasing me. you know very well who you are.

i just don't understand why people want to do it? for fun?
but isn't reproduction the real purpose for sex?
if you don't want to have children, then why do it?

i am really sorry to say this. but seriously, in my opinion, i think all those people who choose to experience sex before they get married are cheap.

yes, you heard me. in my opinion, THEY ARE CHEAP.
i mean, seriously, why are they so desperate?
if you really love that person, you will be willing to wait for her/him, just like what people always promise when they can't be together with the one they love.
or is it an empty promise?

everyone reading this post now, let me tell you this: if you had/have sex before, please don't let me know, because i really despise people like that. and i can assure you, i will never look at you the same way again.

laugh at me if you want. call me conservative, or anything you wish.

stop telling me all the survey findings; stop telling me it is common.
I DON'T GIVE A DAMN ABOUT WHAT OTHERS DO.
i just do what i think is right.

to me, it is so darn wrong to have premarital sex; it is not something unmarried couples, especially teenagers, can handle.
think about the consequences.
the probability of getting STD, of getting pregnant;
the possibility of a very messy breakup,
and a very high chance of sinking in deeper and deeper after your first try, like getting hooked on a drug.

for those who are tempted to try, please. heed my advice.
leave it 'till after marriage.

Friday 23 March 2007

wow..didn't realise my last post was almost 20days ago.. been really busy with school stuff, everytime switch on laptop, do school stuff, then dc..didn't have time to blog at all..

one more month & this sem will be over..gosh! i haven't started my revision!! how am i going to pull my cap up like this?

sigh.. so busy with all the projects and stuff.. why is it so troublesome to study in business school? everyone else can have a really nice break during the recess week, unlike me, and everyone else in business school, have to go to school almost everyday for project meetings..

i seriously don't understand econs.. this is worse than micro.. and the tutor.. sigh.. it's like his presence is insiginificant.. who says macro is easier?

i am so busy with school and tuition now i have no time to think of any intellectual things to blog about..

PERSEVERANCE!!

Sunday 4 March 2007

not a scorpio

i am supposed to be a true scorpio; born on the day of scorpio, at the time when scorpio was the dominating sign. (that's what i saw from a book in kino..)

but why am i so not like one?

i forgive easily. too easily.

is that bad? or is it supposed to be something good?

i forgive, but don't forget.