random, random
supposed to spend my evening studying for my finance mid-term, ended up watching 《大只佬》. don't know why suddenly i felt i cannot be bothered with all these mid-terms anymore.
so 潇洒~ :pkarma.
报复只会让人万劫不复。
yuk ching, please remember.
die die must remember.
was listening to class 95 this afternoon,
yes, that is another change that i made. i cannot be listening to perfect 10 for the rest of my life and pretend that i am still 17 right? and this is what i learnt:
3 steps to enter a man's, or a woman's heart:
- show concern and interest whenever the other party speaks
- do not be judgemental
- respond accordingly
maybe that is why i am doomed to fail; i cannot even do well in the very first step.
原来你和我从一开始便是个错误，是注定要失败的。那你又何必那么难过呢？
学会放开，才能看见更美丽的世界。
退一步，海阔天空。说我迷信，i don't care. 但天蝎女人注定是要心碎的，如是那样，我为什么要让自己得到伤害？
要学会封闭自己。
this is so sad, isn't it?
回家
今天在回家的路上，突然主动牵爸爸的手，才发现，我已经好久没有牵着他的手了。
这种陌生的感觉，是何时开始的呢？
要慢慢找回昔日的生活步伐。
very comforting..
today, another person reassured how my future will look like: my tutor.
auditors have no social life. after one enters the big 4 upon graduation, one can jolly well kiss goodbye to all other things in one's life besides work, work and more work. that is why a lot of auditors end up being old splinters/bachelor.
(i think it's very unfair that unmarried males are called "bachelor" whereas the females are called "old splinter", this is seriously sexist and violate female rights!) and even if they end up getting married, most of them either have no children, or they quit working as an auditor.
one very comforting thing to note though: the big 4 are not very concerned with honours. all they care is whether you are hardworking or not. aka, they are looking for cheap slaves.
(yes, considering the fact that auditors work around the clock, the pay is really miserable) so now, getting an honour is stroked off from my list already.
question to answer now: should i do a second major?
oh well, i can really picture myself having a 4-room hdb flats, a beetle, 5 dogs, and no husband.
-shrug-
any kind soul who is pro in photoshop around?
we desperately in need of someone who can help us photoshop this picture for our "understanding the universe" project:
printed it out but is extremely blur. we need something sharper!
any kind soul around?
if i have death note..
i will kill all those who smoke.
they endanger lives of not only themselves, but the innocence as well.
damn all those tobacco companies!
new eyebrow
super sian.
the 2 main reasons why i made up my mind in going for eyebrow embroidery are: 1) van said it is not painful; 2) my mum said it won't swell. in the end, i experienced both.
felt kind of cheated.. :p.. joking
la.. but seriously i was not mentally prepared for that level of pain which i endured for 2 hours.
and now, they look so fake (cos they are very dark now, looks like i used crayon draw two lines above my eyes) my bro was like, "wow! so fake!" when he saw me.
really wanna hide at home for the rest of this recess week and don't meet anyone.
but i am going to meet the girls tomorrow..
the beautician told me it'll look natural after a week's time. i am keeping my fingers crossed.
i passed my basic theory, finally!finally i can proceed on to the next stage of learning driving --> get my L (loser)-plate.
van, thank you so much for reminding me that my test is today. you are really becoming my PA.lol.
now playing: 天空
听着自己的心跳
没有规则的跳跃
我安静的在思考
并不想被谁打扰
我们曾紧紧拥抱
却又轻易地放掉
这种感觉很微妙
该怎麽说才好
时间分割成对角
停止你对我的好
瓦解我们的依靠
在你离开之后的天空
我像风筝寻一个梦
雨后的天空
是否有放晴后的面容
我静静的望着天空
试着寻找失落的感动
只能用笑容
期待着雨过天晴的彩虹
think i'm crazy
ever since i got my new camera, i like to take pictures of myself.
this is something i took this morning, before i went to get my eyebrows "corrected":
hopefully, with new eyebrows, i can be a changed person.
to someone,
假如你在看，我希望你知道：
谢谢你给我的爱。
现在的我过得很好，请你也要坚强。
有一些东西，失去了就再也找不回来了。
对不起，我是很残忍。
但是如果我不那样做，我们能够“快刀斩乱麻”吗？只会变成“剪不断，理还乱”吧。
勉强是不会有幸福的。
谢谢你给我这么多美丽的回忆，我会把它们好好收藏起来的。
对不起，你受的伤害都是我给的。是我不好。
不要忘了我们的约定：12月见！
i sincerely hope that we can put the past behind us and still be friends, forever.
qian-dodo!
hello! i am qian-dodo!my name is very auspicious you know? my owner gave it to me yesterday.
am i adorable? my owner thinks that i am very adorable.
hope that i will live up to my name and bring my owner "qian-dodo"!(o^-^o)
ok, everyone
now my hair is red, and my head is slanted.
i like it and i hope it will stay this way for as long as possible.
MAPP assessment said that i am someone who resist changes, i only agree to a certain extent. when it comes to my appearance, i hardly hesitate to try new things out, especially in a time like this.
making drastic changes do help one adapt to other changes better.
you should try it too.
broke my personal record again: didn't bathe for 58 hours!
heh..
my new gadgets:
courtesy of those hong kong credit card companies.
hoho!
finally
after 3 years, 5 months, 25 days. it's over.
我要快乐。
现在的我真得很不快乐。
对不起。
倒带我受够了等待你所谓的安排 说的未来到底多久才来
总是要来不及才知道我可爱 我想依赖而你却都不在
应该开心的地带 你给的全是空白
一个人假日发呆 找不到人陪我看海
我在幸福的门外 却一直都进不来
你累积给的伤害 我是真的很难释怀
终于看开爱回不来 而你总是太晚明白 最后才把话说开 哭着求我留下来
终于看开爱回不来 我们面前太多阻碍 你的手却放不开 宁愿没出息求我别离开你
总是要我乖慢慢计划将来 我的眼泪却一直掉下来
过去怎么交代你该给的信赖 被你亲手缓缓推入悬崖
从我脸上的苍白 看到记忆慢下来
过去甜蜜在倒带 只是感觉已经不在
而我对你的期待 被你一次次摔坏
已经碎成太多块 要怎么拼凑跟重来
终于看开爱回不来 而你总是太晚明白 最后才把话说开 哭着求我留下来
终于看开爱回不来 我们面前太多阻碍 你的手却放不开 宁愿没出息求我别离开
track playing currently:
<<一人一半>>- 881 soundtrack
exhausted,
both mentally and physically, again.
when can i put a stop to this?
when will i ever find the courage to face it?
i need some guidance.
hi, everyone.
I am back.i know it is a little bit late to say this (i was back in singapore more than 24 hours ago), it feels great to be home (even though i really really miss redang/terengganu). (o^-^o)
sorry, i went redang, not tiomman.. please forgive me if anyone of you out there were mistaken; i only knew that the place i was going was called redang like the day before departure? :p
the trip was really fun, sadly i don't have any photos to upload right now (i don't have the camera with me you see).
sh said i changed after i came back from this trip. i don't know, maybe he is right. but people change all the time right?
世界唯一不变的是改变.
suddenly, this song starts singing in my head.
the seven deadly sins
the seven deadly sins:
and today, i am sorry to announce that i have committed one of them--gluttony.
for lunch, van & i went to tried out the new cafe in science, mega bites. the food is relatively good and cheap, i would definitely say that it has the best western food in the whole of NUS.
i had chicken chop set while van had chicken cutlet. my serving is smaller than hers but i took 1/3 of her chicken so i ate more than her. after our main course, we shared a mud pie, which is only $2.20! it's good, even though the one served in n.y.d.c is better, i would prefer this one in school.
i was so full i can feel the food stuck in my throat. and yet, despite having such a heavy, sinful lunch, i still went ahead for my dinner in New York New York. or rather, i knew i was going to NY NY this evening (to celebrate my mum's birthday), and yet i went to have such a sinful lunch.
in NY NY, i ordered a smoked salmon salad for myself, but i helped my mum eat her fish n' chips 'cause she couldn't finish. we ended our dinner with "pancake with ice-cream and blueberry sauce". it was good, much better than their waffles with ice-cream. the pancakes have blueberries inside, the dessert is served with honey. super sinful right?
sorry didn't take any photo, even though i would love to share photographs of all the lovely, delicious, sinful food that i ate today, my mind was too-preoccupied with the idea of swallowing all those food down i forgot about taking photos totally.
and the main point is that i was not hungry at that time; i simply ate because the food look so delicious and i couldn't help myself.
see, gluttony.
i am so ashamed of myself. that's why i made this declaration here; i confess my sin, my wrongdoing here.
please forgive me.
random post
1. i cancelled my tuition today because i have to do my bsp presentation slides.
2. new track added. i think this song is much more appropriate than the previous one (it's still on my playlist thought).
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要勇敢面对
把曾受伤的心慢慢放出来用我的真心真意分担你的悲哀
拥有了爱 心就分不开
Oh baby
你如果很受伤 让我陪你哭一场
外面的世界多精彩
就让我把你的眼泪轻轻拭干
有时候我们必须学会放开Oh baby
你如果很受伤
就当作是梦一场
你和我的未来充满无尽想象 要学会遗忘悲伤 才能
牵着手去拥有 爱的世界
meaningful ya?
3. i wanted to wite about something else but i have forgotten what it is. so i shall end here. =)
now my room is dark
my luck cannot be better than this.
the lighting in my room is not working except for my table lamp.
my room will be pitch dark if i switch my table lamp off.
how romantic.
this is especially so for someone who has night-blindness.
really perfect.
spoil just when i am very busy and have two weeks of tutorials for me to clear.
and guess what?
my mum said the wires have gone loose so there's nothing we can do except wait for my father to come next next week.
great, really really great.
原来爱情这么伤
词曲:彭学斌 制作:马玉芬
我睁开眼睛 却感觉不到天亮
东西吃一半 莫名其妙哭一场
我忍住不想 时间变得更漫长
也与你有关 否则又开始胡思乱想
我日月无光 忙得不知所以然
找朋友交谈 其实却帮不上忙
以为会习惯 有你在才是习惯
你曾住在我心上 现在空了一个地方
原来爱情这么伤 比想像中还难
泪水总是不听话 幸福躲起来不声不响
太多道理太牵强 道理全是一样
说的时候很简单 爱上后却正巧打乱
只想变的坚强 强到能够去忘
无所谓悲伤 只要学会抵抗
原来爱情这么伤
原来爱情是这样 这样峰回路转
泪水明明流不干 瞎了眼还要再爱一趟
有一天终于打完 思念的一场战
回过头再看一看
原来爱情那么伤
下次还会不会这样
* this song is dedicated to my dear friend: yy, cheer up!!
yes, yes, yes!
my first
malaysia trip is finally confirmed, baby! next
saturday and
sunday,
i'll be in
Teluk Sari,
Mersing and star gazing with
alice,
xinyi and friends!!
even though i have a pile of tutorials and projects waiting for me to complete, i am going to take a short break from school!
actually it's n
ot totally break from school, i am going there for our project..
In addition to all of the astronomy related activities in this
expedition, we would recommend the short hike up to the neighboring
islet for beautiful panoramic views of the South China Sea and beach
scape. Previously, dolphins were chanced upon, potential sights of the
horseshoe crab, and many other sea creatures. Do remember to bring along
your camera, and comfortable (light) clothing as this is the
opportunity for the photography buff to take some great shots.sounds so exciting right?
haha..can't wait for this weekend to come! (o^-^o) *but before i can go enjoy myself(hopefully),
i'll have to rush this stupid presentation out by
friday..20 slides..sob*
waiting for my second
malaysia trip to be confirmed..
new tracks added/changed. think i shall let myself take a break from those two tracks, they made me feel sad
everytime i listen to them.
