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sad² day..

today's such a sad day 4 me..nth happened though..i jus feel so sad out of a suddden..mayb it's becos of wat happened yesterday (erm..wat happened yesterday?)..haix..im such a loser..born loser..

a letter frm me to u (..whoever or wateva u'r..),

i dunno how to start or where to start..becos i realised i dunno u at all..suddenly, u jus seems like a stranger to me..u dunno how afraid im..becos like wat i always say, u'r not me, no matter how hard u try, u can neva experience the same feeling as me..but i guess it doesn't matter anymore..at least to u..

u dunno how much u haf hurt me..all these time..all e things tt i haf done 4 u..u choose to ignore..or forget about them..i tot u'r not lidat..i tot u rmb e things i did 4 u..i tot u'r different frm e others..i tot... ...but in e end, u prove me wrong..u said i do not care..u said i only take, dun give..but you'r wrong..very wrong..i cant name out the things i did 4 u..not becos i din do anything tt's y i cant name them out..aso not becos they'r so not impt i cant rmb..it's becos but i choose 2 forget..y? i tot it's normal 4 me to do all these things 4 u becos u wroth it..so y bother 2 rmb?

we'r not saint..we made mistakes..i do..u do..everybody do..im sorry i made all those stupid mistakes..i noe im wrong..i'll try my best 2 change my attitude and character.. do u rmb u made mistakes too?u did do sth wrong aso? u did hurt other ppl b4 too? but do u rmb? i cant rmb e mistakes u haf made..not becos they r too minor or sth..but becos i choose 2 forgive and forget..or at least i try to.. i forgive u..and now im trying to forget..it's difficult to forget..but im trying..trying to squeeze them into a corner in my memory..make them as insignificant as possible..

all along i tot u'r doing the same thing..but i jus realised u'r not..u still hold on to the past..u still choose not to forgive and forget..can u understand e hurt i feel? (i bet u cant cos..u'r not me..)

it feels like as if i was living in my own dream all this while..my own fantasy.. or mayb it's my fault..becos i always 'think' u'r lidat..i couldn't c the reality..it's my fault tt im hurt..becos i did not really bothered to find out the truth..like i said..i live in my own world all this time..

to stranger, i dunno hu exactly u'r.. i dunno wat u wanna do next..i dunno wat's ur decision..but please..if possible..do inform me when u haf make ur decision k? tt's e last wish i haf..

last of all, thank you for ur kind attention.

posted by +abrac[A]dabra+ @ 17:45