pieces of me

pieces of feelings and thoughts..

really bad mood recently, keep having mood swings.. especially when i go for tuition, feel really frustrated.. i kept scolding the little girl for not doing her work properly, but the thing's that she has been doing that along(ugly handwriting, bad posture, bad memory) & i was perfectly fine with that up till now.. what's wrong with me? i pity her..


received my feedback analysis on tue, some quotes from my group mates:

- I feel that she is trying to hard to impress by handling too much tasks at a time even though she is coping with it. Also, she might want to be careful with her time management so that her schedule do not get packed up.

- She is very humble; she said a lot of sorry in her message for not being able to join us due to her other commitment.

- Area od improvement for Yuk Ching will be, she should try to mange her time more effectively to fit into our group discussions.

- Something to worry about would be her busy schedule..

laugh out loud.. 4 out of 6 people actually mentioned 'busy schedule' in their analysis on me.. do i really look like i am extremely busy?

maybe i am.


the cold war is still on.


rushed for tuition today, no time for dinner. i gave the sec 2 boy extra 1/2 hour of tuition again, hope he'll perform for his exam..

i am scared of seeing his results.. wat if he didn't do well? it's not for me to decide but it's still worrying..

maybe i worry too much.


even though i am going to become an adult soon, i still don't understand them.

it doesn't feel good to feel abandoned and unwanted, especially by your own family right? then why am i doing that?

suddenly feel very bad about myself.. how can i think in this manner? he's hardly here, so if he wants to nag, i should just let him be. he raised me up; he paid for all my expenses; i should feel grateful and treat him better, but why am i talking to him as if he's my enemy?

maybe i should treat him better;
maybe i should talk to himnicely from now on..

but is it too late to start making amendment now?

hope not.

posted by +abrac[A]dabra+ @ 00:23