pieces of me

darn..

realised something new has uconsciously developed in me.. recently, whenever someone upset me, the first thought that strike me was that.."i want to buy things!"
a few weeks ago, dear said something( or was it something he did? couldn't remember..) that upset me a lot.. after that, i kept wanting to buy something for myself.. i was window-shopping like crazy and tried so hard to look for something to buy.. sadly (or should i say fortunately?), i couldn't find anything i want, i didn't buy anything, and i was angry with myself..

something happened this morning and i was really upset.. i tried to forget about it when i went to meet up with ks they all.. i didn't buy anything, but i was exceptionally generous with my money today.. on my way home, i told dear about the incident in the morning, and suddenly, the impluse of wanting to buy things strike me again..but of course, i didn't buy anything as i was on the bus.. and i was upset because i could not buy anything..

i find it a bit scary.. is it something unhealthy? but the weird thing is that this impluse would stop almost immediately after the person apologise.. weird isn't it?

i think there's something wrong with my brain..

posted by +abrac[A]dabra+ @ 23:53