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jus crap..

ok..it has been awhile since i wrote sth here..(e previous entry was copied and pasted frm a chain letter, so not counted)..

today i went 2 sch 4 cca..and it's kinda difficult 4 me becos i hafnt been getting up earlier than 9am since nov!!and 2day, i haf 2 get up at 6.45am..when my alarm rang, i jus ignore it and continue sleeping..i normally cant do tt becos i always find e alarm irritating, so i will at least get up & switch it off b4 going back 2 sleep..but 2day it's different..guess im really not used 2 it..die! how am i gonna to survive when sch starts? i'll haf 2 get up at 5+am!!!

last saturday i went out wif my mum to suntec city.. b4 we went suntec, we 1st went 2 some neighbourhood shops 2 look ard..we walked pass a shop and my mum wanted 2 buy pants 4 my bro, so we stopped and browse e shop.. my mum asked e shopkeeper, hu is anauntie in her 40s, if they other sizes available 4 this pair of pants.. guess wat tt auntie say?.. she asked my mum,' is ur son as fat as ur daughter? '..hahahaha..nobody can understand my feeling at tt point of time..i was really angry la i mean.. seriously, i noe i am fat, thank you. u dun haf 2 say it out.

u noe ere's tis kind o ppl i dun really like in tis world, they r e 1s hu'r super duper frank.. i noe being frank and str-forward is a good thing..but sometimes they get so frank till tt extend i really cant stand.. like tt auntie, i dun tink she said it intentionally (i mean hu wants to get their customers annoyed?) but still.. so i really believe tt lying is not a bad thing totally..sometimes a whilte lie can help ppl 2 gain back confidence..or mayb even save their lives..

after i heard tt, it's really like an alarm 2 me.. i can choose 2 respond in 2 ways: eat even more & make myself much fatter; or i can choose 2 go o a healthy diet & try 2 lose weight..luckily, i chose e latter.. yah..im starting to exercise..haha..after a yr..hopefully my tis diet works.. i haf been going on & off diet since sec.3..and so far, only 1 succeed..tt's e1 after O'level..haha..2day i went 2 sch & im tired, so i'll excuse myself 2day..hopefully i wun excuse myself frm exercising tmr.. pls wish me luck!

oh, as 4 tt previous Q abt tt baby..im not really sure becos i neva gone thru tt phrase (& wish i dun haf 2) .. but as 4 now.. i dun tink i'll keep it.. i dun want 2 bring a life to e world & let my child suffer.. i dun wish 2 c myself hating tt child 4 giving me misery & suffering (i dun tink any1 will hate their children, but dun u tink it's a pain when u c ur loved 1s suffering like tt? at least i tink it's heart-breakingly painful..) hu wants their love 1s, esp their children, 2 suffer pain, esp pain tt most ppl doesnt haf 2 go thru? if so, then y do u want 2 bring them 2 tis world? 2 torture urself? or ur child?.. (i tink alot o ppl'll tink tt im wrong but it's ok, different ppl haf diff views on same topic anyway..)

ok.. i shall tink of another question 2 post..till next time (i dunno when'll tt b)..bye 4 now!=P

posted by +abrac[A]dabra+ @ 16:57