pieces of me

hammie

today i went j8 to help my mum buy something.. i passed by(actually, i should say i detour to) the pet shop, and guess what? a new batch of small little cute roborovski!!

i immediately called my mum & asked her to go meet me in j8.. she had been thinking of getting a pair of robo after xiao ai died.. and after like an hour, she came.. we went to the pet shop & after half an hour or so, we left the shop.. empty-handed..

it's not that their hammie're not cute enough.. in fact, i think they're the most adorable batch of robo i ever saw (maybe except xiao chun & xiao ai).. and frankly speaking, i was kind of relieved my mum didn't buy any..

i don't know.. but i guess i still miss my xiao ai a lot (unconsiously, maybe?).. i just could not bring myself to see another hamster in my house & use the things that once belong to xiao ai.. or maybe it's just the fear of facing death& departure(hmmmm, is this the word to use?) again.. i mean sooner or later these new hammie will die right? and that's in like at most 3 years' time? xiao ai was only in my house for half a year yet the grief i felt when she passed away was already so enormous.. i can't imagine what'll become of me if a hammie that has spent three years with me pass away..

guess i'm too easily attached emotionally to something (aka devoted and faithful).. which is quite bad for myself right?

i really don't know..

posted by +abrac[A]dabra+ @ 20:32