pieces of me

i will not forget that day...

i went for tuition, helped my tutee in his Chinese composition, and i actually forgot how to write 测验！i sat there, struggled for a few minutes and in the end, i gave up; i really cannot remember how to write the word.. and i asked him to take out his dictionary...

as a tuition teacher, this is one of the biggest self-inflicted insult i have ever faced. it was much worse than not being able to explain a primary 4 problem sum to my tutee, worse than when i don't know the meaning of some primary school English vocab.. i used to be very happy with myself, for my Chinese is above average standard.. but look at me now, i can't even remember such a simple word! my Chinese is deteriorating without me knowing.. and all this while i thought it can forever maintain at the level it used to be, by just reading newspaper everyday.. seems like i was so wrong.. i was so naive..

and it is not like my English is improving inversely proportionally. i am finding it harder and harder to accurately express myself in English precisely; i end up being very long-winded because i can't find words that can properly describe my thoughts.

what will become of me?

posted by +abrac[A]dabra+ @ 20:22