pieces of me

unforgettable

i will never forget.

still remember when i was 5, i accidentally knocked into a woman when i was playing with my brother and i broke her toe nail. i can still see her red nail polish colour blended "perfectly" with the blood that was flowing out underneath her toe nail; i can still remember that horrified and petrified face of hers vividly, as if it only took place yesterday. what happened after that was, i ran away, without a word of apology. i just ran away, out of panic and guilt. and because of that, i was, and still am, guilt-stricken. 15 years after the incident had took place, i still cannot forgive myself for doing something so cowardly, to run away after i have knocked into her. i believe if i have apologised and let her and/or my parents punished me, i would not feel so bad about myself.

and yesterday, my retribution finally came. my left toe nail is off.

sh accidentally knocked my toe and ta-ta, the nail is detached from my toe, just like that.

went to a 24-hour clinic and the doctor referred me to Tan Tock Seng hospital. i was considered as a severe case 'cause i was able to see the doctor almost immediately and yet i spent around 2 hours in TTSH. (so anyone can imagine how long you have to wait there if your case is considered as "minor"). in the end, i chose not to remove my nail and let it drop by itself; i was too traumatise to let the doctors remove my nail then (but now i kind of wish that i had it removed yesterday, save all the trouble).

i will be toe-nail-less for at least 2 months i think. and i will have to wake up a lot earlier everyday because i cannot walk "normally" and need a lot more time to reach office.

no more pretty heels or sandals or slippers for me until then.

posted by +abrac[A]dabra+ @ 12:17