pieces of me

i was actually planning 2 update ltr in e evening..change my mind in e end cos i noe it wun make an diff when i write cos nth interesting's gonna happen ltr, it's still gonna b tis dead boring..so i decided 2 update now then ltr when my bro comes home he can use e com..
my bro's so nice 2 me today..he actually left his fone at home& allow me 2 use it..haha..he said i can use all i want..actually it's becos he was charging his fone so he couldnt bring it out..but anyway..it's really rare..haha
ok..last nite i was darn irritated + pissed off..i dunno y aso..i jus felt tt way..*sian*..i was mad at sh 4 no reason..no reason at all..ok..mayb ere was a reason y i was annoyed, but i dunno wat's it..all he said was tt he couldnt go out today cos he had 2 do his pw &i was annoyed..i refused 2 go 2 his hse..i even refused 2 step out o my hse 2day..i dunno y..i mean ere's nth 4 me 2 b angry about rite?..like wat i always say(&i mean it!)..studies and any other related 2 it r the most impt things 2 us now &they shld b placed as our very top priority..so y shld i b annoyed jus becos he was jus doin things according 2 their importancce?!..pw's related 2 studies & so it's definitely far more impt than goin ut wif me..so..yuk..wat r u mad about?!
guess im e selfish 1..i want him 2 spend all his free time wif me..like other than sch&cca..he shld b wif me..tt's really inconsiderate!!..i mean i shld giv him some personal time rite?..like 4 him 2 study, do homework, spend time wif his family& friends..we cant stick 2 each other 24/7..we cant do everything 2gether..
tink im becoming more & more dependent on him & tt's seriously not a good sign..i mean wat'll happen 2 me if he's not around 1 day?!(e.g in e future..ns?!)..if i become too dependent on him, i'll definitely collasp when tt day arrives..yuk!..cant allow tt 2 happen!!..must try 2 become independent again!..if not u cant survive!!..I.N.D.E.N.P.E.N.D.E.N.C.E.!!
*oh yah..i was really pissed when he told me he haf research attachment 4 e whole o dec hol..but i must b more understanding..tt's his dream..i shldnt b selfish & make things difficult 4 him..anyway, im very sure i'll b able 2 find meaningful things 2 do during e hol..
**haha..im always making things difficult 4 him..im so bad..haix..

posted by +abrac[A]dabra+ @ 15:51